Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Shermaine's sick :[
Fuck it man, I'm dying already luhs.
I feel so not myself at all lorhs.
I'm just like a ghost floating everywhere :/
I walk got no sound one, quiet is the word.
My face is damn pale like a piece of paper.
My voice is damn low like a guy.
My expression is damn shit luhs.
I just don't look like myself anymore.
My eyes go blind when from bright to dark.
I see no image at all, oh my god. :/
My temperature is 38.5 'C :[
I have not seen a doctor yet, im tired.
I'm afraid the temperature too high,
That it actually affect my brain luhs.
This would lead me to be D-U-M-B :[
Exams are coming already.
I aint studying yet luhs.
And worst still I'm sick now :[
Blah. Shermaine's gonna die real soon :[

Yesterday went for tution with ting.
As usual I was late again luhs.
Which I'm famous for so nvm.
After tution went with eunice, dillon, benedict, charlyn.
Charlyn went to vivo city, we went to syc.
We sat bus 10 to our destination.
Throughout the journey is just jokes.
Thanks to dillon and eunice luhs.
Lame and dumb jokes only :D
Same bus as Benjamin Hum :]

He talk to me luh, Yeah :]
He sat directly behind me,
I was like damn paiseh luhs.
I sit until my butt and legs numb :/
Sat opposite him when wearing shoe :D
When he walk pass me that time,
Stupid Zhengjie shouted "O"
Than Benjamin look at me luhs.
I was like damn damn paiseh :/
But he is damn fucking cute :]
Zhengjie made me damn paiseh only.
Ohmy, I think Benjamin know already.
Shit it man, I'm in dead meat. :/
Dillon, Benedict, Eunice, Zhengjie bully me.
They all talk very loud what I like Benjamin.
I think he heard it luhs :/
Cause we were all screaming like mad -.-
Headed home on train with them
I made a new friend from Pasir Ris Sec
Her name is called Jasmine :D

Homed and I realize I'm sick luhs :[
Slept after phoning with Weiting and Leonard
I woke up at 3 in the morning
Cause I'm actually shivering luhs.
Wanted to go for morning gongyo today.
But Iwas feeling uncomortable :[
I'm sorry Eunice, Benedict, Zhengjie and Joel.
I always say that I'm going,
But in the end I didnt go, Sorry :[

Woke up feeling damn shag :/
Watch television and had breakfast.
Brother had a birthday party downstairs.
And I just came up only cause not feeling good.
I'm like dying already lorhs :[
Magic show was nice but dumb -.-
Couldnt even eat anything luhs.
All the stuffs are like so Heaty ! :/
So everything also cannot eat :[

Later going to see doctor already.
I hope I got MC for tomorrow.
Cause I'm afraid I'll faint in school.
I'm really really weak. Seriously.
Nowadays my shoulder is damn pain.
My injury has not recovered yet :[
The stupid hump is still there.
Shermaine become very weak already.
I don't even know whats with me too.
I'm not strong physically and mentally. :/
I used to be strong luhs :/
Now I'm like damn weak already.
I can cry very easily now :[
And all cause of you and only you.
You made me become to this state.
I'm just sick of life already luhs.
If one day I really go haywire,
All of you should know why too :[

I don't even know what to do now,
I have mixed feelings now totally.
I don't even know who I like now,
There is so many people I know.
I'm just stuck right here now.
Am I really gonna wait for you,
Or maybe I'm not going too.
I just cannot get over you,
I aint knowing the reason why.
I just don know what to do now,
That's the main problem luhs.
But every action of yours affects me,
It is totally hurting my feelings.
I just hope you're happy right now :]

Shermaine is just so so so weak right now,
both mentally and physically.
I'm just not myself anymore already,
I don't know what has gotten into me.
Shermaine just don't like the ways things are,
Cause it is actucally hurting her no matter what.
Life is not beautiful anymore,
Ever since things between she and him changed.
It is not filled with different colours of light,
But only black and white life.
It isn't complete without him over here,
Only him can make her life colourful again.
Shermaine is willing to changed,
Just for the sake of you.
Can you just be part of her life,
Just like how you used to love her.
Always being there for her no matter rain or shine,
Cause she is willing to be there for you.
She is willing to give you 70% of her time,
Just as you once suggested to her.
Shermaine is just waiting over here for you,
Hoping that a chance would come by again.
She is just lost without you,
Enter her life again to guide her along?
That's all she ever asked for :]

Chia Weiting and Ng Mian Yang Leonard.
Thanks for everything you'd done.
It is being appreciated by me,
I love you guys to bits and pieces :]

I'm avoiding you now totally,
Not cause of that incident.
But I just don't like you now,
Don't ask me why too.
Cause I don;t know the answer.
You guys can say I attitude,
I don't give a damn care.
My attitude is like that,
No one can changed it.
Maybe as time passes by.
Things may get better by then.

Shermaine is still loving you now,
The love is still as strong as before.
She's just hoping that there's still chance,
Hoping things would be the same as before.
And Boy, I still love you.

Tomorrow is 17 september 2007
I'm wondering if you still remember.
Two more months later its 171106
It would be the one year anniversary.
Will things get better by that time,
Or will things remain like how it is.
But I'll forever remember that very day.

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