& is life getting better as the days past by?

hello. btw just to inform you guys
that the yesterday post was 'venting anger'
idk why too. yes im piss and yet of course sad luh
i think if i cry and left my tears in a bucket
2 buckets must have been filled up by now
for crying since monday until now luhs. Zz.
just to let you know something larhs
if you think that i don love yuo anymore
would i even cry till so badly
if i was not waiting for you,
would i even be so shag when you're with her now
common sense it says 'i love you & im waiting for you'
if you think that im not, im speechless of words -.-
yesh things ended up in some stupid outcome
i was surprised that you would actually read my blog
when you're treating me so cold, & you're already attach
you tag me and commented about the post
LOL. LMAO. ROFLS.

by the way, i would also like to thank you too
although everything is already over betwee us
i don wish to make myself wait for you any longer
cos i know that the hurt on me would be deeper
and by that poin of time, it would be harder to let go
the first time when i actually talk to you was 301006
when you suddenly online & i talk to you
we exchange numbers, idk why too.
at first i thought that i only had a crush on you
but slowly i soon found out that i love you
the day we were together was 171106
all along many happy stuffs did happen
whenever i receive a msg from you, im delighted
whenever i received a call from you, im happy
whatever you do, it totally makes me high! (:
i still remember that we walk back from petal to my house
although it was quite far from my place
but that was the sweetest thing luhs (:
im sorry that i didnt spent the first month with you
but i remembered that i went for a holiday in hokkaido
during that whole journey, i practically miss you ):
maybe you don know, but i really did yarhs
throughout the first month, all happy moments
not lon later, school reopen lerhs
you are always giving me morning calls
and i would meet you at your house there
and we would walk to school together
the second month was simply great too
and when after second month had pass,
your valentine day present for me was sweet
it was really much apreciated by me, really.
the boquet of flowers you did personally
99 stalks of them in a boquet luhs
the bottle of 17 motes as well luhs
the little cross stitch keychain you did.
it was after the trip we made to pasir ris beach
to celebrate valentine's day
everything starts to turn from good to worse
my feelings started to fade for you
and i seriously don know why too
we broke up on 180206 ):
it was the first day of new year
& i still remembered that i went to my grandma place
it was at pasir ris 300 + luhs
i sat alone at the staircase there
shermaine was emo-ing alone there
& who knows you were at pasir ris too
slowly, things starts to get better
we started to keep contact like how we used too
but every 17 of the month, you ask me for patch
and everytime i rejected your patch
cos at that point of time, studies was on my mind
i never ever thought bout this relationship thingy
soon we patch again, but its different already
we had a broke up before i head to KL with netballers
the whole trip i had was shag shag shag
wondering what were you doing at this moment?
there were many question marks in my brain
when i came back i sent you offlin messages
didnt know that your com broke down
before i board the plane to vietnam on the 10
i seriously wanted to sent you a message
asking you to take care and everything
but in the end my finger could not press the button
i was wondering were you contacting gladys
not long later after i came back from vietnam
i found out that you were with gladys already
i practically broke down luhs ):
the day i came back was on the 17
and i heard this kind of news, i cried -.-
went to bugis to see you work
and yeahs finally i saw you
that very day was the first time
i drank the bubbletea you made (:
school started and it was worse
i always see you with gladys
i would practically cry luhs
i still remember one day i want play with penknife
ben, liangyu and you came down
i ran away cos i didnt wanted to see you
i rejected to speak to you for 3 times
im really very sorry, im sorry!
but seriously i was touch that you came {:
soon later you and gladys broke up
we soon became good friends again
we were almost back to what we are
and now you are with her already
i don mean that you caused everything luh
but saying that i also cant do anything what
so i cant run away from it, or pretend i don know
i can only face the music, which is you are taken!

throughout this whole long journey,
which practically lasted for like 9 mnths +
there were good and bad memories (:
though there were more bad dhen good luhs
but as time pass by, i will erase the bad and keep the good
i would only wanna keep the good memories
and bring them along with me as i move on
i thank you for all those that you'd done for me
i have learnt plenty of stuffs out of this
i learnt to cherish the one i loved more
i got the feeling of how it is being loved
i have learn to grow up along the way
i learn to think first before doing anything
if i were to compare with the past me
i did change luhs, maybe slightly? (:
i did think of the outcome and the future
i really did learn something out of this thing!
& yesh it is all thanks to you! {:
you made me feel blessed once,
im contented bout that already.
at least i was once being loved by you alot.
although everything is gone now
but there was beautiful memories
and im keeping them in my brain
& i move on to another world waiting for me
so the only thing that i can do now
is to wish you all the best with her now
everlasting with her alrights?
make her feel blessed with your love
i give you my support, jiayou!

shermaine carry on with her life,
although as time passes by.
the road myabe tougher for me to walk,
but afterall i still need to go through this.
cos i chose this road myself,
and i need to walk through it.
shermaine is gonna stay strong,
not gonna let you think im weak.
i know it is difficult for me to let go,
but there is no point holding on too.
where your heart is already not here,
but don know fly go where lerhs.
it is really difficult for me to let go,
it is a task that i must accomplish.
cos i know that you will never be mine again.
i don want to have hope for it again.
cos if nothing happens agains,
the hurt on me will be even worse.
im trying my best & i really am ! [:

lin yeye, hello you help me alot alot.
you help me along the way for so long lerh
it is greatly appreciated by me, seriously!
you were a great help all along this road
sorry was making you the messenger or centre person
since it is already over, so you are normal again
LOL. idk what im talking. hahas.
& everlasting with her too! all the best {:

my dearest BFF uhs, peekaboo!
hello. you were the one always there for me
no matter what actually happens
anything i will just tell you luhs
no matter what is it lorhs
i can just tell you anything luhs
all along this journey that happen,
you were always the one there for me
i just cant stop thanking you for what you'd done
it is really much apprcited by me lorhs
Y BFF forever ! {:

the time has already come for me to move on,
i just hope the road ahead for you is good.
shermaine hopes to see you happy,
take care since the friendship between us has ended.
all the best in whatever you're doing <3

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