FUCK UP LIFE -.-

lols. cant life just get better for me?
yesh it is the you-know-who caused it
he made me emo for 4 fucking days
and he is now happily with a girl -.-
what this shit man. __ up life.
i think it all happen on your birthday that very day
if you were blaming me that i treat you very cold
when we were talking in the canteen
and you said i talk like sian sian de
dhen you saw me playing with my class guys
do you even know what happen in the first place?
they disturb me first lehs, they are irritating!
come on don even think that i like them lorhs
they are just some stupid childish guys
on that day you treat me so so so cold
& yarhs maybe on that day you know that girl
yes i know what is happening now, everything.
you played me & now you're with her
i don care whether the game says that is fake or not
you're willing to this kind of fuck shit
you said that i very close with guys luhs
arent you even worse than me? -.-
you even agreed to be fake stead with that girl
cos the game rule says if two persons get the same number
they need to be stead for a period of time
you actually agreed luhs. i'm disappointed, totally!
do you even know how would i feel marhs?
you said we don have the basic trust?
who is the one who don have the trust in me!
i totally trust you de lorhs, you broke the trust i had for you
wanted to meet you these days,
one day you'd rather go down to meet her
how would i actually felt bout it?
i ask you went there to find who?
you said to find a guy luhs not a girl
before i even talk to you on the phone
i already know the truth already
you lied to me luhs! fuckshit.
did you even bother to call or msg me?
not even in the first place luhs
did you even bother to ask me out?
who have been doing this all this while
it me lorhs, i put in a lot of effort in this thing
what on earth did i get back in return?
NOTHING. but knowng that you and a girl ):
all this while, all those i have done weighs nothing at all
i cried everything night for you
do you even know? i bet you dont at all
all you care is only for that girl that girl !
who do you even know longer man? me luhs.
they may go mama they are like you
so what? so are you a flirt if thats the case?
all those that you once told me? are they lies?
we were almost going to be how we used to be
you spoiled everything luhs. YOU YOU YOU!
so what am i suppose to do now?
cry for you everyday like some shit
when you don even bother at all
& i end up the emo one, you the happy one
what fuckup nonsense is this !
she is totally just like a part time stead of yours
i called you, you didnt answer, you didnt even call back
i message you, you didnt reply, don even bother too!
dhen what tag along with you wherever you go?
you are the cause of everything luhs
am i gonna make myself wait for you again
first was her & now this girl again
and when we were getting close again
you find another girl again
and i start waiting again larhs, is it?

yesh i admit those two girls are really pretty
so you do look at looks de larhs
i now don even know what im doing
seeing you like this, it makes me go lalala
im going crazy already liao lerhs
my shoulder hurts all the time
you didnt even bother to ask if im fine?
you were not even there for me,
when i needed you the most?
i lost you along the way, a guy i love like fuckshit
where do you go all the time?
i cant even sense you anymore
i mean you do have the rights to met anyone
cos we are not stead larhs
im not your girlfriend, youre not me boyfriend
but please please think larhs
i'm damn pissed off now
knowing bout this just today after school
monday im having x ray at the hospital
i was hoping that you would make me happy
& not worried for the x ray
where were you? gone with that girl larhs!
im nothing to you but a piece of trash
maybe you don even love me anymore
im speechless of words, totally.
i wish you all the best with her den .

by the way bff, maybe the time has really come
thanks for everything girl ! {:

shermaine is nothing but a piece of trash to you ]:
im wondering if the time has come for me to move on?
screw my life up dhen! __

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